I am sitting here listening to the hum of the dryer, wondering what I am going to write about tonight. As we all know, it’s usually about the children, even though every now and again I like to mix it up a little bit and throw something random out there just to stir the pot. But alas, this is the night before Ben’s pre-school graduation so there is some mother’s reflection going on in this squirrelly brain of mine, but isn’t that usually the case? As the clothes in the dryer toss and tumble so do the thoughts in my head.
This is a big year for our family; a lot of changes are coming our way, some of which I will talk about right now and some I will talk about later; but they are coming nonetheless. It’s daunting, exciting, and simultaneously nauseating, yet it’s just something that families and individuals have to deal with – that dreaded, dreaded thing we call “change.” Ben is finishing pre-school; well we knew this would happen. Eventually he would have to leave the comforts of snack and circle time and go into the big, wide world of bullying and SOL’s; what mother hasn’t prepared her child for that? We are ready to take on elementary school. The only thing I have to say is at least they give them a few years to get their feet wet before completely stressing them out with standardized testing and hold off until the third grade. So with that being said we have high hopes for kindergarten through second grade; after that, it’s up in the air. Yes, little man has finally arrived on the big-boy stage. He will officially be a kindergartner this year and he is so proud of himself. He announced at dinner tonight that he was “graduating” tomorrow.
Now my only worry is about his first school pictures. I know you think I’m crazy – and I may just be a teeny bit – but I have reason to be nervous about this. His two front teeth are loose. Yes, that’s right, his two top front teeth are loose and I just know that they are going to come right out the minute the first day of school starts. My child will be snaggle-toothed in his first official school picture and I just don’t know how I feel about that. Another big change; he will surely look like a big kid with missing teeth and I just can’t get over it. I am sure it will be cute and I will love it at some point, but as I said above, my feelings about it now are up in the air.
Lily, my sweet little petal will be thrown into the world of daycare in the fall. Not a change that I am really looking forward to but I am embracing it. The Goddard School is helping me do so because I feel like she will be gaining something going there. It’s not her Meme’s house but it’s a warm, inviting place to go where she will surely be loved and taken care of and that’s what matters most to me. Hopefully while there she will learn to be a little less demanding and will become skilled on how to play less like apro-wrestler and more like an 18-month-old girl.
I am facing changes as well, but we will save that for another time. It’s an exciting new challenge that has presented itself to me and hopefully I am up for it. These new opportunities mean a world of change for our family and that is a very, very good thing. The more time you spend with the most important people on this planet, the better, so how could that change be anything but positive?
Changes, people, changes are everywhere. Ben in kindergarten, Lily not at Meme’s; myself, who knows where I’ll be (I know but that’s for another time); Mary Hart is not on Entertainment Tonight and Oprah’s no longer on the air. It’s happening all around us, these changes. We just have to remember, though we may not be comfortable or confident in them, change can always be a good thing.